Whitehood

 𝙄 𝙬𝙞𝙨𝙝...⁣⁣

...I could be positive.⁣⁣

A nice person that looks on the bright side of life, most of the time, with a faith in life and a knowledge that everything will always turn out great.⁣⁣

And when problems hit me, I would be able to laugh at them, realizing that it doesn’t really matter.⁣⁣

That all of this is just an illusion, a magic trick and that the cards are always dealt in my favor, so there is nothing to worry about.⁣⁣

A person that knows that all she has to do is just sit back and enjoy the ride.⁣⁣

Every lesson that is thrown would be learned, most of the time with ease, sometimes a bit more difficult but the positivity would always shine through.⁣⁣

The kind of person that lights up the room when she walks in, not because she’s beautiful on the outside, but a ray of sunshine on the inside.⁣⁣

People would love me when I was that person.⁣⁣

But I’m not.⁣⁣

I’m a dark cloud that sees doom everywhere.⁣⁣

The one that has no faith in herself, what equals to having no faith in life.⁣⁣

A person that comes up with a plan and sees it failing before she has even tried it, so she never even begins.⁣⁣

Someone that is guided onto a spiritual path but her mind stops her.⁣⁣

Warns her not to go there.⁣⁣

To just sit where she is, make no sound and just survive.⁣⁣

And while I typ this, I see 21.21 on my clock.⁣⁣

When I look it up it means: New chances. Trust that the angels are by your side trough these changes and that you are guided every step of the way. Stay calm, balanced and happy. You’ll see that everything will work out for your highest good.⁣⁣

It should soothe me but somehow, it doesn’t...

She was sort of a wizard gift that destiny has talented ME. can| I will be able to| I'll} be there in her misfortune and positively will facilitate to induce her out of it or we tend to each face it along. ⁣

She does not knowledge a lot of I like her. I actually have ne'er shown up to her the fullest as a result of no matter what I did for her, she was therefore glad therewith.⁣

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Maybe...⁣

Maybe I like her too exhausting...⁣

Maybe I like her too altruistically.⁣

Maybe she does not have any plan concerning what proportion I like her.⁣

Maybe I expect an excessive amount of from her.⁣

Maybe I merit too less.⁣

Maybe I'm the star and she or he was sorting out the moon.⁣

Maybe she loves ME however does not wanna show ME.⁣

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And that's the sole issue I will be able to ever wanna apprehend.⁣

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I will attempt to busy myself with some stuff that I do however whenever I take an interruption, I feel of her.⁣

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Every very little issue that we tend to share, each look, remains saved within the back of my mind.⁣

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No matter what proportion she tried to form ME forget them, their existence is unavoidable.⁣

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More than losing her, the thought of living alone, terrifies ME.⁣

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She is kind, good, and delightful, and that I love her.⁣

Been a moment since you’ve been there, sitting in a garden with a cup of occasional in your hand and staring far at the chain, with a few dogs running towards you.

Been a jiffy since you smiled like that with a half-read book by your aspect, that has been lying there since you slept last night whereas observance, and making an attempt to spot those constellations that you simply examine during a book precocious to you on one in every one of your birthdays.

It’s been a jiffy since you took off that look forward to you not required to bind your life in line with the time on that, and might stare at faraway villages for hours, before obtaining up and taking another path for the day in search of that hidden falls, that locals couldn’t stop talking concerning.

Isn’t it what you dream concerning these days? arousal on your heat mornings because the winter's area unit starting to hit those slopes, and snow flurries will currently be seen floating down the sky to perch themselves on the last of the blooms before it’s all white another time.

The sounds of crackle wood from the fireside, the smell of cocoa, the comfort of standard conversations with those few mountain friends, and also the days that’d float by with none got to keep in mind that day it's, or that hour you’re inhaling.

I know, i do know you miss it, the manner these mountains miss you, because the daylight waits to caress your skin another time.

One of my favorite Month, I hope, whatever memories will begin it'll quite be just amazing.❣️

Flashback Memories (When trauma happens)

SOME UNTOLD THINGS


Here's the 2nd of November, I've always believed that happiness begins in November But this thing has been completed a year. Where do the people of the time do not know where? One year ago those days were going on like that was not even known for one day that how those days have passed! That time was so interesting that the fun of life was just in those days but that day a special person was away from my life and unfortunately on that day a person got involved in my life. So I've not even dared to say a single sentence that***************. Continuously I'm losing my Confidence in front of her and I don't even know whether she will get me or not. Despite this, I'll try my best. I'll take full advantage of November. I've confidential about it.

Dear Mom, ⁣⁣⁣

This one is for the days you stayed awake till I got home. This one is for all the days I disrespected you and you didn’t say a word. This one is for all the days you cried in silence thus I wouldn’t notice. This one is for all the days you took out it slow to cheer ME up and for all the days I simply wouldn’t listen. This one goes to you, mom.⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣⁣You don't seem to be solely my mother, however, you're my teacher. while not you, I’d ne'er be WHO i'm these days. You instructed ME on everything I do know, from a way to write my name to a way to handle disappointments. you've got instructed ME that I merit additional, and you've got fought each day on behalf of me to possess what I own.⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣⁣You are my supporter. you've got stayed once everybody else has left. you've got given ME your best recommendation and most significantly, you've got ne'er given up. you've got been there, cheering ME on from the sidelines, look ME grow because the person I hope you needed ME to become.⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣⁣But most significantly mummy, you're my hero. It’s terribly true once they say that not all heroes wear capes as a result of you wear one thing approach higher a good-looking smile. I want to sometime be lucky enough to be as sturdy and committed as you're. To handle things the approach you are doing with abundant|such a lot|most} grace then much love.⁣⁣⁣

⁣⁣⁣I need to apologize for all the days I wasn’t the person you due. i would like to mention compassion each moment I used to be a disappointment, though you don’t see it that approach, as a result of that’s simply what you are doing. You see the most effective in individuals and hope for everybody to become their higher selves. you're lightweight|the sunshine} in everyone’s shadow regardless of what percentage times you had to alter your own light bulb.⁣⁣⁣

This one goes for all the days I didn’t say i like you, as a result of mummy, i actually do love you.♥️⁣⁣